I only marry people that I believe we can spend the rest of our life together, but that's my fantasy or dream. Otherwise, it's staying single with a possibility of adopting children. My mom has been pushing me around about not having a boyfriend or hanging out with friends since I'm still in my "young" and "prime" time...

I'm turning 20 soon, and I'm not very social, and my friends are all in different universities. I have some difficulty hanging out with guys. There are very few guys I can actually be with without getting annoyed or uncomfortable with. The first guy I was comfortable with is currently in a relationship, and the second guy is someone who I am distinctly-ish related to and lives in another country. Haha... I think I've got a bad luck or fear of guys or something. Most of the relationships I have with guys end up bad (with me blocking or avoiding them...).

If there is a marriage, I don't think it will happen anytime soon. I don't know anyone my age who is married except for this former classmate of mine, and he went into marriage because he got his girlfriend pregnant (he was a senior in high school at the time, and she was a sophomore). I think the ideal time for marriage is in the mid- or late-20's, but with budget cuts to education and whatnot here in the US, it doesn't seem possible to me. The people who I know are getting married are in their 30's, so I guess that would be the time?

Ack, sorry for rambling.